The Very First.

Ok, the virgin post. My very first blog. And I’m feeling really excited (and nervous??). Feels like the first day of school. The first time driving my dad’s car on my own. The first time I met someone I like. The first day of work. Afterall this is my very first step to unofficially publish my thoughts for everyone to see. Before this, I’ve been giving all sorts of excuses for not wanting to start a blog. Like I’ve a really old pc that might break down while I’m in the midst of typing a good entry, I’m still on dial-up (yes, I’m a laggard) so I can’t post my entry properly and cost-efficiently, and blah blah blah. The real reason is that I’m worried about exposing my life to others. I don’t know what I’m worried about, it’s simply just an unexplainable fear that I have.

I was finally convinced to start blogging only after reading a good friend’s blog recently. He’s a very quiet person, always keeping to himself. A man of few words really. He is someone who seems to find peace in successfully blending or camouflaging himself into the background whenever we hang out in a group. I thought if such a hermit doesn’t mind people reading his blogs, then what’s up with me?! I’m pretty sure I’m so much more open and sociable than him… and what’s there to worry really? haha, anyway, laozi, thanks for pushing me to start my blog! :)

A few years back, I was once very tempted to start blogging as well. That time I thought it was a good avenue for me to release all my thoughts, frustrations, and joys (and I still think so). And that was also the time when blogging seemed to be the hippest and most in thing to do. So I picked a blog site and started my registration then. But, as usual, at the point of clicking the finish button to complete the registration process at the blog site, I shuddered and backed out at the thought of having people read about my life and me. Not that I’m a super introvert or a fantastic blogger who can write like Dan Brown that everyone rushes to read all my blogs, but to write about my own life and let it known to everyone including strangers is something that erm… I don’t normally do?? I’m the type of person who always thinks too much about doing something. I’m not the gutsy person or the chilli padi that most people think I portrayed to be. And I always think about the worst consequences that could result from my over-thought decisions. That’s why I’ve always ended up doing things the safest way, which means to say the path that I’ve chosen for my life hasn’t been very adventurous so far. So I’m pretty glad and proud of myself that I’ve completed my registration this time round and actually posted the long-awaited entry (at least to laozi, I think). It may not be something to some people, but it’s a really good start for me. I feel good.