Gathering = a chore + formality?

I lurveee friends' gatherings. That's when everyone updates everyone in their lives, chat, share jokes, laugh alot and have fun together. It's something that I always look forward to especially meeting old friends (read: meaning real friends, not acquintances or just colleagues). However a recent friends' gathering really makes me feel like gatherings have really become a chore to some.

It was scary to a certain extent. There were plenty of awkward silences in between the simple birthday dinner gathering. And when the silence was broken, questions asked were questions that had been asked in the previous gatherings or even the previous previous previous? Haha, really I dunno which is scarier, the deadly silence or the recycled questions asked at every gathering. I ended up pretending to be so interested in the pasta dish I'd ordered like I've never eaten pasta my whole life. For the first time, I really had nothing to say, didn't bother to think of something to say and simply observed silence. hahaha, ya me observing silence like everyone else. wahahahaha...

Even trying to arranging for the gathering was a formidable task, we had to try so hard. We used to arrange a couple of weeks before. Now even 1 month in advance was not good enough for a simple dinner gathering like this. All Fridays and weekends have already been fully booked a month ago. Alrite, my friends are all social animals except me and miss teo. But most weekdays too? Hahaha, this is too much. I'm beginning to think that I've no life but just work. And when we finally met up, nobody could be late cos we all had to retire home early. Ok ok, no late so that we can finish dinner, give the presents to the birthday girls and go home fast. Fast fast. I couldn't help but think that it's all just a chore and a formality. I so dread the next gathering :(

Ask me out, ask me out please so that I can too fill up my whole year's calendar with appointments NOW. But only real friends can apply please.